I've been doing well in terms of getting my house cleaned and decluttered before October. I've been getting sewing projects done, even if not as fast as I hoped. I have plans for gifts, and do have a good start on what I need to do. I have cookie dough in the freezer. I have most of the things printed that I wanted to get done (ran out of ink, so haven't finished printing cards ... but can't find my address book anyway).
This weekend was to be the last of the "major" cleaning projects, finishing the kitchen. And friends were to come Saturday night for dinner (a great impetus towards getting done!).
But everything changed. The husband of the couple we expected died suddenly this week. And I am re-examining everything. I am sad because I knew him. I am very sad for my good friend. And I am also (very selfishly, I admit, but can't help) sad because they were they only friends who ever came to visit us. (I have one girlfriend who comes often .. but she's not only seen my house at it's worst, she's helped me clean it; and mostly we do stuff that makes a bigger mess!!). I realize just how much I was counting on having the house look nice for their visit. I know perfectly well they wouldn't care (they've sure been over when things were NOT at their best!!!) ... but I care. Now I find myself roaming through my clean and neat house, and not enjoying it. Because a house without people is just a building. My friends live an hour away, and it's been hard to find a good time to get together. Plus, my house has inadequat a/c, so during the hot summer was not a good time! My family all lives "somewhere else" and are all too busy and too far away to visit. I do have one niece that visits ... but she only wants to watch TV and nap on the sofa! LOL! Oh, and eat. LOL! (and I usually have to go get her anyway).
I've come too far to quit now, so I will finish up the plan. And I will decorate because I enjoy it so much. But somehow, this year, without someone to share it with ... the lights seem a little bit dimmer.
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